Wow

I can't sleep, and I know I need too. I am going to write on here and see if it eases my mind.

As many of you know, Last night was painful and I was miserable. I hardly slept. I couldn't wait for my appointment. Isn't that weird?? Well after about a 45 minutes of waiting they realized they'd skipped me and went right on to the next 3 people. They took me in to take my blood pressure and as she was taking it I had another contraction (At this point I still didn't know that is what it was) and so of course my blood pressure was elevated. So they were "Worried" about that says the nurse. So I get in the room and feel yet another super painful contraction so by the time Dr. Sessions got in the room I was crying, Dead give away I am sucking at life. After making sure the pain wasn't in a kidney area (Kidney Stones can be a side effect of Preclampsia) he said "well let me check you real quick"... Shock to me, I am 3cm and 75% effaced! What?! I was kind of shocked and then my Dr says "Well I say in the next few days we'll be looking at Elijah, and seriously those are contractions". Wow, I was expecting that it would be "Another pregnancy symptom". It is almost go time! I am excited and nervous. We went for a long long walk earlier. I may do the stairs in the 8-plex later. I am so ready!!

I am still having PAINFUL contractions, but they are not close enough together to admit me, and you have to be 4cm to be admitted. So hopefully I can get this moving because my Dr is the one delivering tomorrow :) Not to mention I don't like the pain.

Everyone say a prayer is goes soon, and that we can meet this little guy
Yes I know, he will come when he is ready but a Mom can wish right?

Ouch!

The meeting with Picerne went well today, Shockingly. I don't know if it was baby, or just me being me, but prior to walking in the door I envisioned them kicking us off post. I don't know why, and it dosen't even seem rational, but I just saw that happening! Anyway, We met with the Manager of our neighborhood and his boss (Who is in charge of all the neighborhood managers). They explained about the LIARS that are saying they have been moved to better neighborhoods through the renovations projects, and how the person that told me she was being moved because of her neighbor complaints was in fact NOT being moved for that reason, but she is being moved because she is having a 2nd baby. Why do people lie so much? He told me that our building isn't scheduled to be moved for another year, but you know what, I am okay with that. The explained that they can only do 7 apartments a month, and they have some odd number of apartments, and were we were on the list. Like I said though, I'm fine with that. The men asked me why I was so upset about my housing, and I told him mostly the heating issue and the upstairs neighbors. We dove into the upstairs neighbor thing, and explained our issues with them. Mainly their loud dog who they never take outside, and their just plain loud behavior and how when we've talked to them they don't care, and the MP's didn't care. Picerne said they were surely going after them, and calling the dog warden. Sucess for us! They told us to call in all of our concerns about the house, and they would put in work orders. They also said they were going after the neighborhood office girls who don't answer calls or put in our orders. I know it seems like we dimed people out, but I was very upset. I told them if they fixed all my issues we would be fine, and I would be fine living here. I don't want to move, I mean seriously, We just painted Elijah's room and I am way pregnant. I like my house. I hate my neighbors though.

On another note, I have no idea what the little guy is doing but at about 4pm I got this terrible pain in my back. Its like in a weird spot, and kind of like a contraction is comes hard for about 30 seconds and then 45 minutes later it kicks me again. I took Tylenol and a hot bath, I got out my heating/massage pad, I had Nate use a muscle rub on me. Nothing is working and its becoming more and more painful, I just lay in bed and cry. Seriously, it hurts. I know it seems like a silly gripe but I would say this is more painful than anything I have done thus far, and after 2 ear surgeries, 2 Cervical biopsy's, 1 removal, 7 Tattoos and what ever else I have done, this takes the cake! It hurts so bad. Nate asking if I wanted to go in, because I was in so much pain. I said no because I don't think its labor, but I do have an appointment tomorrow, so I will be saying something. Hopefully Dr. Sessions can make it better, or induce me or something. I am so desperate to not have to feel this anymore.

Tomorrow I have to also pass out candy, and get some other things done. I just hope Dr. Sessions can help me.

Lap Swimming

Nate took me to the pool today to do a little swimming. I had to beg a bit before he finally caved, but he finally did. I prefer the swimming to the walking because I don't have shoes that really fit anymore, and its cold out. The gym is a nightmare to get into on the weekend, because everyone and their entire family is there.

So this morning when I woke up one of the 4 upstairs neighbors had come down to ask if Nate was hearing the dog next door cry. Nate said he hadn't, but apparently the man had left his dog there alone all weekend and this dog has been crying for the entire time. She wasn't mad, but she was concerned and worried about the dog. I don't blame her, poor dog. Sadly because no one knows anyone in this building really she had no way to find this guy and talk to him about the clear distress this dog is in. Nate told her she could call Picerne or the MP's because we just didn't have any other option. I think she more than likely called the MP's. There was a paper in the hallway asking us to post our phone numbers in case of an issue so we could get ahold of each other. I added mine, because if my dog were in panic I would rather have the neighbor call then come home to an MP.

Other than that, We made Fajita's tonight. They were so good!! I loved them, and probably ate way too much. I fell asleep on the couch, and Nate woke me up to take me to bed. He thought he was being awesome by taking me to bed. Sadly though I got back here and couldn't fall asleep again. I'm exhausted though, swimming was harder than I figured it would be. This bump takes allot out of you!

Making some more candy tomorrow I think. We'll see! Maybe Tuesday when I have more time since Monday's are NST days.

Latest Dilemma and Making Candy

So last night on our drive Nate and I got to talking about the moment I go into labor, and the big day. I told him although Elijah's bag is packed and had been for awhile, I still needed to pack mine, and I'd need to start making sure the camera and video camera were charged up and had full memory allot more. Other than that, it was just kind of normal anticipation talk. Then he mentioned that he keeps getting told "When you go to the hospital call me" from everyone. He said he really didn't want to call anyone until Elijah was born, and at first, I was a little shocked and I guess. I asked him why he wouldn't want to make those calls, and he told me that one of his fears is that we would go at say noon, and we would lay there for a few hours, or my labor would be hard and the whole time we were going through this his phone would be going off with "Is he here yet?". I hadn't really thought about that one before, I actually was shocked I hadn't thought of it. I mean, it happens with every appointment I have, I have an appointment at 2pm and by 2:30 my phone has missed calls, and texts. I know people are genuinely interested and want the baby news. I understand that, but I guess maybe our fear is that people might call us allot during that time and if things are getting hard or complicated in delivery that could be slightly annoying. I know as of now when I have a contraction (Even the little ones) I get annoyed and don't want to be spoken too, and just want silence. Can you imagine when they are more intense how annoyed I would be at the phones ringing and such? I guess I am torn because I want everyone to feel included in the moment, and Elijah's birth, but I can see Nate's point all the same. I understand family and friends wanting to get the calls, and wanting to hear about it all, and trust me I know it sounds like I am too bothered to deal with phone calls. That isn't the case, I just can see the point Nate is making about keeping it as intimate and stress free as we can. If we are just there, doing what we need to do to get him out, and focused on that and only that I wonder if it would make it more serene. I thought about also just sending out and email, or saying in a phone call that yes we will call, but only when we go in and then of course when he is here. Between that time we would like privacy and if everyone could just let us be and relax that would be appreciated. I guess I don't want to hurt any feelings by saying that though, because I don't want people to think I'm saying "Your annoying don't call us" and that's simply not the case, I don't mean for it to seem that way at all. I guess I am just torn about what to do. I also thought well we could call people when we went in, and then turn off our phones. I wonder if that would work too? Oh I guess I have some thinking to do, since no matter what I'd have to call my Mom. If she isn't already here, she will be driving here ASAP, so I don't want people to get mad that my Mom knew and no one else did, or take that to mean anything negative. Dilemma in every sense of the word!


Well my Candy making ended up being an all day affair. I started at 11am, and wrapped up at about 4:45pm..... I only got 3 double batches done too! It took me a long time, and I set out to get 7 flavors done and only got 3 done. By the time batch 3 finally finished I was sore and hurting so I said to heck with it. I did the Mint, Peppermint and Orange. I still want to do lemon and Rum for sure. I may tomorrow but I don't know. I may just give it a rest for this season being so preggo and that it took so much work. It's actually not allot of work, its more like just allot of time. I mean its not like its hard to boil until the candy forms threads in water, but dang it takes allot of time. Oh well though I suppose.

Candy Making

Quote of the day:

"The only reason a Pity Party is necessary is when no one else feels bad for you. But that should be a hint. Stop talking"

As you can clearly see, Its been one of those days. For no specific reason. I just kind of woke up in a grumpy mood. Maybe its the contractions, or the fact that I slept poorly, or maybe its just the weather. Who can say really? I spent the day a little on the grumpy side though.

Needless to say, As normal Picerne made the top of my "Mean" list today. I found out that someone who has been having similar issues to us in their neighborhood (Minus their dogs being stolen, and the vandalism) are getting a new home, when my neighborhood director told me I was basically stuck. So I filed a complaint, again, explaining that I think they could do with a little bit of standardization across their board as far as policy. I mean honestly, this lady is complaining about noise, and that all and their moving. We've had our dogs taken from our yard, and called the MP's numerous times, and had the upstairs neighbors vandalize my property, but we can't move..... YEA. So I filed a long formal complaint, and they called Nathan today asking when they could set up a meeting with Nate and myself. So Tuesday at 11:00 it is. I am nervous, but I was talking to Nate and I said to him, it isn't even about them moving us at this point. We've painted, we've made this a home, but it really is about principal. Hopefully we get through this meeting fine.

Nate came home at 2 today, shocking because I figured he'd be late since all this week he was home very early. I guess all the big wigs had a holiday party though and it was him, Sgt. Clarke and Spc. Ogburn work so they all went home. We decided to go to Manhatten to get things for me to make more candy. I'm going to make it for him to take to his Co-Workers, and some of our friends out here. Hopefully I can make enough to get some sent to family as well. I got I believe 6 things of flavor, more sugar and more Karo syrup. So I can effectively make 6 batches, and possibly more as I am pretty sure I have more flavor in my cupboard somewhere. Today I got Strawberry, Raspberry and Creme Mint and a 3rd mold. I think I have Sperement in my cupboard, and banana but I can't remember if I do or not. I will find out tomorrow I guess. We watch NCIS, ate dinner and we are now getting ready for bed. Spending time with Nate honestly made me feel better, and even contracting I didn't feel as grouchy anymore.

Other than that, today was slow. Tomorrow should also be pretty lame, other than candy making and maybe hanging out with the Ogburn's.

Appointment <3

Well IACH actually hooked me up today :) I called at about 8:30 and asked them if I could come in later, because of the whole appointment thing, She actually changed my time from 9:30 to 10:30. I only had to wait about 10 minutes between my NST and my Appointment.

During the NST I had 2 small contractions, they only lasted about 45 seconds, and weren't strong enough to be admitted according to Sandy and Dr. Sessions. I was told though that he is getting ready and I could safely deliver him "Any Day Now" but since my due date isn't until the 3rd of January technically, I shouldn't deliver for at least another week but if I do, not big deal. Now I am nervous..... Still only dilated 1 cm though, so not like he is coming any time soon, we still have a ways to go before my contractions are intense enough to do anything, and I still have some dilating to do. I told Nate I want to shoot for the 23rd, Since the 22nd is our anniversary, and I don't want to be at the hospital on Christmas. My blood pressure/preclampsia (Sp?) issue isn't as serious as Dr. Mason said. Dr. Sessions said I need to relax more though and rest. He said it was a tiny bit more than what they wanted to see as far as the labs, but it wasn't as bad as Dr. Mason made it seem. So I am supposed to ask for more help and rest more. So that is something I intend to do. Poor Nate, I kind of feel bad. They increased my Metphormine from 500 to 850.... Still once a day, but the 500 isn't doing enough anymore. Hopefully only a few more weeks!!

Other than that, I am taking a nap because last night I slept like poo and got up early this morning. A nap should do the trick!

Holiday Socail

Well today was uneventful, at best. I woke up thinking I had an appointment, good thing Nate looked at the calender! I actually did not. It is tomorrow, along with my NST. My NST is at 9:30am and my Appointment is at 11:20am, so I am going to call up to the NST clinic and see if I can come later, like 10 or 10:30 because its such a waste to drive up there, and then back, and then back up there. Hopefully they see it my way :)

Today I went to the Commissary because the Christmas party for Command group was tonight. I arranged with the other families in Command group to just pitch in together and give me some cash and I'd do the work. We were tasked with appetizers, so it was really easy. I just made a Veggie Tray with dip, and a Fruit tray with dip. Too easy :) I ended up taking 5 plates worth, and came home with a 1 I think. So it definitely gotten eaten.

Nate had to go in at 9am today, even though most people didn't. They consider him "Essential Personal" as he works in Brigade. He came home at like 11:30 though. He called me at about 10 and told me he was playing in the snow with a Humvee and Spc. Ogburn. I guess at first they were told to drive over the parking lots to pack the snow down for other drivers. Then CSM told them to go ahead and see if there was anyone stuck that they could help. He helped I think he said 2 guys, and then they were told to go home. He sounded like a little kid in a candy store!! He was having a blast, and I'm glad because he got some of that out of his system.

The party was cool, It was at the skating rink, so I didn't skate. Nate did for a few, but he only went around a few times, and then decided he wasn't good at it and didn't want to get hurt. They had Santa for the kids, and we hung out with the Ogburn's. We tried to get Austin to sit with Santa but he was not having any part of that (Guess its normal for someone who is 2, being placed on some strange guys lap). It was cool, because I really like CSM Jones and his wife. They are such a cute family. I met allot of the others Nate works with too, that I didn't already know obviously. I forgot to take my phone with me though, and ended up feeling a little guilty about that because I had several missed calls and Text Messages. Normally I wouldn't care but there were 2 people that needed help that I wasn't able to help because we didn't get home until 8:45 or 9:00. Both people understood and had things taken care of though.

I made hard tack candy today :) I made Watermelon and Apple. It turned out really yummy! Nate loves it. Guess I did a good job, and you know what, it wasn't as scary as I remember it last year. Even after my Candy Thermometer broke, I wasn't afraid! I told everyone that is still looking for things to buy me for Christmas to get me gift cards to Hobby Lobby for more Candy making equipment, and to Target for Elijah's needs.

I am 37 weeks now, just waiting..... Above is the picture from tonight :)