35 Weeks

Well I am 35 weeks today. That means that since they don't want me to pass 39 weeks, I only have 4 Weeks left! Wow time has flown. Not that I am complaining at all because I am READY! My Dr told me that I could deliver at 37 and that baby boys lungs would be healthy, and they wouldn't do anything to stop contractions. I really wouldn't mind having him at 37 Weeks though. I would love to hold him sooner, rather than later.

This morning was the NST, and that went pretty well. Nathan came with me, so he hung out with me. It really helped pass the time though, and Elijah did a ton better staying on the monitor. Thank Goodness :)

We also had our 35 Week ultra-sound this morning. It was alright, but can I just say that I really dislike the whole fill your bladder prior. My appointment was at 10:15, So I had to empty my bladder at 8:45 am and then drink a Qt. of water by 9:15am. Then you can't pee or anything until after the ultra-sound. I did okay, except they didn't see me until 10:45 so I really had to pee! The tech was really nice though, and she remembered us from our 20 Week appointment, which I thought was funny. She remember that baby boy had his legs crossed and the cord down there, and she asked if we had ever figured out what it was. I told her about my KC appointment, and how we knew from that. So a few minutes later as a joke she was like "Wow, This is a girl"...... Nate and I both said "WHAT?"..... Then she told me that it was joke. We were having a boy. Nate and I were both really worried, I mean we've painted a green room, and have tons of boy clothing! She printed us off a picture of the "Boy" parts. So rest assure, he is a he! Other than that, we are doing great. He is looking wonderful! I am a little nervous though because his head is big. I am not being a silly Mom, and thinking WOW, even the Tech said his head is large. They couldn't accurately predict the weight though, so she said it would take some time for her to study the Ultra-Sounds to get an accurate prediction. The weight makes me the most nervous simply because GD babies have the history of being larger. Since he is still wanting me to deliver naturally, We really have to keep a close eye on him. If he gets to be over 9lbs we have to have a Cesarean no way around it.

That's another thing that's been on my mind allot now a days, This whole Natural birth Vs. Cesarean thing. My last provider that I had until I was about 6 months along said the whole time because of my Cervical history I would have to have a C-Section. Well he retired (Horrible timing in my opinion) 3 days before my 6 month appointment and my new Dr. is allot younger and he was telling me that although this is common practice for allot of the older Dr's that he dosen't believe this at all. The concern is that when you've had the cervix altered or had portions removed that you may not dilate the way you should, and this lands many women in a cesarean anyway. He told me that in his opinion that he wants all first time Mom's to at least try it natural, and see if they can dilate on their own and deliver without surgery. He told us the ball was in our court, meaning its kind of up to me. He has been emailing me numerous articles about the topic, and talking to me about it all. Let me tell you that I was by far the most angry about this at my initial appointment with him. It really frustrated me because for 6 almost 7 months I'd been told there was no chance of a natural delivery. Now I am being told that its suggested? I guess I just feel like there is no winning. I am terrified of delivery, either way. One thing I am most afraid of saying "Lets do it natural" and then having to go into surgery anyway because I couldn't dilate or his head is too large. Further more, his weight plays such a big role in all of this. My Dr actually said at the last appointment, Well I guess it is a hard choice to make because maybe you should have a cesarean because of the GD. So I don't think he even has his mind made up, and I'm supposed to choose?? I dunno, I'm just worried I guess. I called the birth classes on post and they said it was too late, Since its a month series and you have to start at the start of the month, I missed November. Starting in Dec. I will miss the last, and possibly 3rd class.


One thing is for sure, No matter what I will be using the Epidural in a natural delivery (if I can even do that). I have heard stories and opinions but honestly I don't care. The Braxton Hicks are the worst, and I don't even want to think about the experience with the real contractions. I told my nurse the other day this, and she went on and on about how I shouldn't commit to that, and I need to try without. Yea lady, Bite me..... I will be using the drugs. I don't want to do it otherwise. It is getting harder and harder to bite my tongue when people tell me what their opinions are and what to do. I can't explain it, but for some reason when someone says "Oh you should do this" regarding anything it makes me furious! Again, I can't explain it. More than likely its the hormones and not so much me. I just feel like if I didn't ask you your opinion, please don't tell me what you think. I don't care if you breastfed, if you delivered "drug free" or if you slept with your child in your bed.

*The pictures aren't the best, sorry! I took the pictures with my camera of the print outs. One is the "Boy" parts, and one is the face.