Wow

I can't sleep, and I know I need too. I am going to write on here and see if it eases my mind.

As many of you know, Last night was painful and I was miserable. I hardly slept. I couldn't wait for my appointment. Isn't that weird?? Well after about a 45 minutes of waiting they realized they'd skipped me and went right on to the next 3 people. They took me in to take my blood pressure and as she was taking it I had another contraction (At this point I still didn't know that is what it was) and so of course my blood pressure was elevated. So they were "Worried" about that says the nurse. So I get in the room and feel yet another super painful contraction so by the time Dr. Sessions got in the room I was crying, Dead give away I am sucking at life. After making sure the pain wasn't in a kidney area (Kidney Stones can be a side effect of Preclampsia) he said "well let me check you real quick"... Shock to me, I am 3cm and 75% effaced! What?! I was kind of shocked and then my Dr says "Well I say in the next few days we'll be looking at Elijah, and seriously those are contractions". Wow, I was expecting that it would be "Another pregnancy symptom". It is almost go time! I am excited and nervous. We went for a long long walk earlier. I may do the stairs in the 8-plex later. I am so ready!!

I am still having PAINFUL contractions, but they are not close enough together to admit me, and you have to be 4cm to be admitted. So hopefully I can get this moving because my Dr is the one delivering tomorrow :) Not to mention I don't like the pain.

Everyone say a prayer is goes soon, and that we can meet this little guy
Yes I know, he will come when he is ready but a Mom can wish right?

Ouch!

The meeting with Picerne went well today, Shockingly. I don't know if it was baby, or just me being me, but prior to walking in the door I envisioned them kicking us off post. I don't know why, and it dosen't even seem rational, but I just saw that happening! Anyway, We met with the Manager of our neighborhood and his boss (Who is in charge of all the neighborhood managers). They explained about the LIARS that are saying they have been moved to better neighborhoods through the renovations projects, and how the person that told me she was being moved because of her neighbor complaints was in fact NOT being moved for that reason, but she is being moved because she is having a 2nd baby. Why do people lie so much? He told me that our building isn't scheduled to be moved for another year, but you know what, I am okay with that. The explained that they can only do 7 apartments a month, and they have some odd number of apartments, and were we were on the list. Like I said though, I'm fine with that. The men asked me why I was so upset about my housing, and I told him mostly the heating issue and the upstairs neighbors. We dove into the upstairs neighbor thing, and explained our issues with them. Mainly their loud dog who they never take outside, and their just plain loud behavior and how when we've talked to them they don't care, and the MP's didn't care. Picerne said they were surely going after them, and calling the dog warden. Sucess for us! They told us to call in all of our concerns about the house, and they would put in work orders. They also said they were going after the neighborhood office girls who don't answer calls or put in our orders. I know it seems like we dimed people out, but I was very upset. I told them if they fixed all my issues we would be fine, and I would be fine living here. I don't want to move, I mean seriously, We just painted Elijah's room and I am way pregnant. I like my house. I hate my neighbors though.

On another note, I have no idea what the little guy is doing but at about 4pm I got this terrible pain in my back. Its like in a weird spot, and kind of like a contraction is comes hard for about 30 seconds and then 45 minutes later it kicks me again. I took Tylenol and a hot bath, I got out my heating/massage pad, I had Nate use a muscle rub on me. Nothing is working and its becoming more and more painful, I just lay in bed and cry. Seriously, it hurts. I know it seems like a silly gripe but I would say this is more painful than anything I have done thus far, and after 2 ear surgeries, 2 Cervical biopsy's, 1 removal, 7 Tattoos and what ever else I have done, this takes the cake! It hurts so bad. Nate asking if I wanted to go in, because I was in so much pain. I said no because I don't think its labor, but I do have an appointment tomorrow, so I will be saying something. Hopefully Dr. Sessions can make it better, or induce me or something. I am so desperate to not have to feel this anymore.

Tomorrow I have to also pass out candy, and get some other things done. I just hope Dr. Sessions can help me.

Lap Swimming

Nate took me to the pool today to do a little swimming. I had to beg a bit before he finally caved, but he finally did. I prefer the swimming to the walking because I don't have shoes that really fit anymore, and its cold out. The gym is a nightmare to get into on the weekend, because everyone and their entire family is there.

So this morning when I woke up one of the 4 upstairs neighbors had come down to ask if Nate was hearing the dog next door cry. Nate said he hadn't, but apparently the man had left his dog there alone all weekend and this dog has been crying for the entire time. She wasn't mad, but she was concerned and worried about the dog. I don't blame her, poor dog. Sadly because no one knows anyone in this building really she had no way to find this guy and talk to him about the clear distress this dog is in. Nate told her she could call Picerne or the MP's because we just didn't have any other option. I think she more than likely called the MP's. There was a paper in the hallway asking us to post our phone numbers in case of an issue so we could get ahold of each other. I added mine, because if my dog were in panic I would rather have the neighbor call then come home to an MP.

Other than that, We made Fajita's tonight. They were so good!! I loved them, and probably ate way too much. I fell asleep on the couch, and Nate woke me up to take me to bed. He thought he was being awesome by taking me to bed. Sadly though I got back here and couldn't fall asleep again. I'm exhausted though, swimming was harder than I figured it would be. This bump takes allot out of you!

Making some more candy tomorrow I think. We'll see! Maybe Tuesday when I have more time since Monday's are NST days.

Latest Dilemma and Making Candy

So last night on our drive Nate and I got to talking about the moment I go into labor, and the big day. I told him although Elijah's bag is packed and had been for awhile, I still needed to pack mine, and I'd need to start making sure the camera and video camera were charged up and had full memory allot more. Other than that, it was just kind of normal anticipation talk. Then he mentioned that he keeps getting told "When you go to the hospital call me" from everyone. He said he really didn't want to call anyone until Elijah was born, and at first, I was a little shocked and I guess. I asked him why he wouldn't want to make those calls, and he told me that one of his fears is that we would go at say noon, and we would lay there for a few hours, or my labor would be hard and the whole time we were going through this his phone would be going off with "Is he here yet?". I hadn't really thought about that one before, I actually was shocked I hadn't thought of it. I mean, it happens with every appointment I have, I have an appointment at 2pm and by 2:30 my phone has missed calls, and texts. I know people are genuinely interested and want the baby news. I understand that, but I guess maybe our fear is that people might call us allot during that time and if things are getting hard or complicated in delivery that could be slightly annoying. I know as of now when I have a contraction (Even the little ones) I get annoyed and don't want to be spoken too, and just want silence. Can you imagine when they are more intense how annoyed I would be at the phones ringing and such? I guess I am torn because I want everyone to feel included in the moment, and Elijah's birth, but I can see Nate's point all the same. I understand family and friends wanting to get the calls, and wanting to hear about it all, and trust me I know it sounds like I am too bothered to deal with phone calls. That isn't the case, I just can see the point Nate is making about keeping it as intimate and stress free as we can. If we are just there, doing what we need to do to get him out, and focused on that and only that I wonder if it would make it more serene. I thought about also just sending out and email, or saying in a phone call that yes we will call, but only when we go in and then of course when he is here. Between that time we would like privacy and if everyone could just let us be and relax that would be appreciated. I guess I don't want to hurt any feelings by saying that though, because I don't want people to think I'm saying "Your annoying don't call us" and that's simply not the case, I don't mean for it to seem that way at all. I guess I am just torn about what to do. I also thought well we could call people when we went in, and then turn off our phones. I wonder if that would work too? Oh I guess I have some thinking to do, since no matter what I'd have to call my Mom. If she isn't already here, she will be driving here ASAP, so I don't want people to get mad that my Mom knew and no one else did, or take that to mean anything negative. Dilemma in every sense of the word!


Well my Candy making ended up being an all day affair. I started at 11am, and wrapped up at about 4:45pm..... I only got 3 double batches done too! It took me a long time, and I set out to get 7 flavors done and only got 3 done. By the time batch 3 finally finished I was sore and hurting so I said to heck with it. I did the Mint, Peppermint and Orange. I still want to do lemon and Rum for sure. I may tomorrow but I don't know. I may just give it a rest for this season being so preggo and that it took so much work. It's actually not allot of work, its more like just allot of time. I mean its not like its hard to boil until the candy forms threads in water, but dang it takes allot of time. Oh well though I suppose.

Candy Making

Quote of the day:

"The only reason a Pity Party is necessary is when no one else feels bad for you. But that should be a hint. Stop talking"

As you can clearly see, Its been one of those days. For no specific reason. I just kind of woke up in a grumpy mood. Maybe its the contractions, or the fact that I slept poorly, or maybe its just the weather. Who can say really? I spent the day a little on the grumpy side though.

Needless to say, As normal Picerne made the top of my "Mean" list today. I found out that someone who has been having similar issues to us in their neighborhood (Minus their dogs being stolen, and the vandalism) are getting a new home, when my neighborhood director told me I was basically stuck. So I filed a complaint, again, explaining that I think they could do with a little bit of standardization across their board as far as policy. I mean honestly, this lady is complaining about noise, and that all and their moving. We've had our dogs taken from our yard, and called the MP's numerous times, and had the upstairs neighbors vandalize my property, but we can't move..... YEA. So I filed a long formal complaint, and they called Nathan today asking when they could set up a meeting with Nate and myself. So Tuesday at 11:00 it is. I am nervous, but I was talking to Nate and I said to him, it isn't even about them moving us at this point. We've painted, we've made this a home, but it really is about principal. Hopefully we get through this meeting fine.

Nate came home at 2 today, shocking because I figured he'd be late since all this week he was home very early. I guess all the big wigs had a holiday party though and it was him, Sgt. Clarke and Spc. Ogburn work so they all went home. We decided to go to Manhatten to get things for me to make more candy. I'm going to make it for him to take to his Co-Workers, and some of our friends out here. Hopefully I can make enough to get some sent to family as well. I got I believe 6 things of flavor, more sugar and more Karo syrup. So I can effectively make 6 batches, and possibly more as I am pretty sure I have more flavor in my cupboard somewhere. Today I got Strawberry, Raspberry and Creme Mint and a 3rd mold. I think I have Sperement in my cupboard, and banana but I can't remember if I do or not. I will find out tomorrow I guess. We watch NCIS, ate dinner and we are now getting ready for bed. Spending time with Nate honestly made me feel better, and even contracting I didn't feel as grouchy anymore.

Other than that, today was slow. Tomorrow should also be pretty lame, other than candy making and maybe hanging out with the Ogburn's.

Appointment <3

Well IACH actually hooked me up today :) I called at about 8:30 and asked them if I could come in later, because of the whole appointment thing, She actually changed my time from 9:30 to 10:30. I only had to wait about 10 minutes between my NST and my Appointment.

During the NST I had 2 small contractions, they only lasted about 45 seconds, and weren't strong enough to be admitted according to Sandy and Dr. Sessions. I was told though that he is getting ready and I could safely deliver him "Any Day Now" but since my due date isn't until the 3rd of January technically, I shouldn't deliver for at least another week but if I do, not big deal. Now I am nervous..... Still only dilated 1 cm though, so not like he is coming any time soon, we still have a ways to go before my contractions are intense enough to do anything, and I still have some dilating to do. I told Nate I want to shoot for the 23rd, Since the 22nd is our anniversary, and I don't want to be at the hospital on Christmas. My blood pressure/preclampsia (Sp?) issue isn't as serious as Dr. Mason said. Dr. Sessions said I need to relax more though and rest. He said it was a tiny bit more than what they wanted to see as far as the labs, but it wasn't as bad as Dr. Mason made it seem. So I am supposed to ask for more help and rest more. So that is something I intend to do. Poor Nate, I kind of feel bad. They increased my Metphormine from 500 to 850.... Still once a day, but the 500 isn't doing enough anymore. Hopefully only a few more weeks!!

Other than that, I am taking a nap because last night I slept like poo and got up early this morning. A nap should do the trick!

Holiday Socail

Well today was uneventful, at best. I woke up thinking I had an appointment, good thing Nate looked at the calender! I actually did not. It is tomorrow, along with my NST. My NST is at 9:30am and my Appointment is at 11:20am, so I am going to call up to the NST clinic and see if I can come later, like 10 or 10:30 because its such a waste to drive up there, and then back, and then back up there. Hopefully they see it my way :)

Today I went to the Commissary because the Christmas party for Command group was tonight. I arranged with the other families in Command group to just pitch in together and give me some cash and I'd do the work. We were tasked with appetizers, so it was really easy. I just made a Veggie Tray with dip, and a Fruit tray with dip. Too easy :) I ended up taking 5 plates worth, and came home with a 1 I think. So it definitely gotten eaten.

Nate had to go in at 9am today, even though most people didn't. They consider him "Essential Personal" as he works in Brigade. He came home at like 11:30 though. He called me at about 10 and told me he was playing in the snow with a Humvee and Spc. Ogburn. I guess at first they were told to drive over the parking lots to pack the snow down for other drivers. Then CSM told them to go ahead and see if there was anyone stuck that they could help. He helped I think he said 2 guys, and then they were told to go home. He sounded like a little kid in a candy store!! He was having a blast, and I'm glad because he got some of that out of his system.

The party was cool, It was at the skating rink, so I didn't skate. Nate did for a few, but he only went around a few times, and then decided he wasn't good at it and didn't want to get hurt. They had Santa for the kids, and we hung out with the Ogburn's. We tried to get Austin to sit with Santa but he was not having any part of that (Guess its normal for someone who is 2, being placed on some strange guys lap). It was cool, because I really like CSM Jones and his wife. They are such a cute family. I met allot of the others Nate works with too, that I didn't already know obviously. I forgot to take my phone with me though, and ended up feeling a little guilty about that because I had several missed calls and Text Messages. Normally I wouldn't care but there were 2 people that needed help that I wasn't able to help because we didn't get home until 8:45 or 9:00. Both people understood and had things taken care of though.

I made hard tack candy today :) I made Watermelon and Apple. It turned out really yummy! Nate loves it. Guess I did a good job, and you know what, it wasn't as scary as I remember it last year. Even after my Candy Thermometer broke, I wasn't afraid! I told everyone that is still looking for things to buy me for Christmas to get me gift cards to Hobby Lobby for more Candy making equipment, and to Target for Elijah's needs.

I am 37 weeks now, just waiting..... Above is the picture from tonight :)

Snowy Days

So Above (Providing everything loads correctly) is the Video from our "snow day". I went to the lab to drop off my sample at 9am. The roads were so, so. I mean they weren't that bad, but not perfect. On my way there I realized some people could really do with some winter weather training. Several of people clean off wind sheilds and back wind sheilds but compltelty ignore the lights and turn signals. When there are 6 inches of snow covering your brake lights, that isn't too safe. Wow people!

So I was shocked to learn that the schools on post actually had class! I was even more shocked that Nate had to work, seeing as the roads are normally closed with even slight snow. They did let school out at 1pm, and its closed tomorrow. Nate has no clue about work, hopefully he dosen't. Then again I don't much care either way, since I have to go to my Dr. appointment and get things for the Christmas party for Nate's unit. I don't get to worried in the snow, today was kind of fun, although I did slip just a bit.

Nate got off work at 1pm, So that was nice. He took the dogs outside to play (Hence the video). It was kind of annoying though because everyone with kids got to leave like an hour before Nate because they had kids to go pick up. It stinks that the people without kids get shafted so much, and even when Elijah is born we will still get the shaft since I will be a stay at home Mom. Oh well.

I have messy pasta about to go in the oven. Yum!

Wow Thanks!

So we've been under this severe winter storm warning thingy lately. I didn't think it would be that bad, and even though Nate didn't have PT, by the time there was work call at 9am the roads were fine. So I went to my NST. Although on my way I realized we never but the de-icer windshield washer fluid in, that normally dosen't bother me, however we have the cheap 98 cent type in there now and its frozen in the tubes now. Great.... So until the deep freeze is over, its going to remain frozen I guess because I have no idea what else to do about it. I was able to scrape all but a tiny spot in the middle of the windshield, My belly wont let me reach that. Oh well I guess, Just have to use the defroster!

So at my appointment they added more meds to the system for me, and I had to go pick them up. I hate the Pharmacy at the PX. Mostly because you have to sit there, and everyone is sick and dosen't cover their dang mouths. So I go to the one at the PX, were you can drop off and come back at your leisure, or wait and walk around for a half hour. That's what I chose to do. I walked around the PX, and then sat down on a bench for a bit. On my way out, I was in the cross walk and when I walked out into it there were no cars in that little loop part, but no sooner was I in the way middle did a G6 come speeding around that area. So I was trying to hurry up because he clearly wasn't going to wait for me to waddle across and I didn't want to get hit by him. Well I slipped and fell straight on my butt! I was pretty nervous about that, and there was an E-7 who helped me up and offered to call the MP's on the driver (Who did slam on the breaks and was sitting there watching). I told the E-7 I would like to just sit in my car and A:) Calm down and B:) Call my Dr. So the E-7 turned his attention to the man driving, who ended up being and E-3..... That man tore into this kid for the entire 10 minutes I was on the phone with my Dr. and as I was pulling away he was still screaming, and saying something about give me the information to your chain of command. I don't know if he called the MP's or not, but I imagine that kid is going to have allot of answering to do. My Dr. assured me that if I was experiencing no signs of labor, and Elijah was still kicking it was okay and I should calm down. He called back about 3 hours later to check on me. That is why I love my Dr.

So I came home, and took some pain medication because my tail bone is killing me, and slept for a few hours, and now I am wired. I can't sleep at all. I went through all of the babies clothing, and made a new list because I haven't added any of the gifts we've gotten in the past month to that list. I wanted to make sure it made it on there too.

Other than that, I guess there is supposed to be a ton of snow tonight, and all day tomorrow. Nate has already had PT canceled again, and they said that at 6am they would re-evaluate the roads and let him know if he would need to show up at 9am or have the day off. We decided that if he has the day off that we would cuddle, drink hot coco and watch movies. He says he is going to play in the snow also, but I don't want any of that.......... At some point I want to make Hard Tack Candy. I painted some ornaments tonight, and might do some more tomorrow. I don't know what I plan to do with them once painted, but oh well. Possibly sell them? I dunno.

Other than that, I think I am going to take a hot shower and some more Tylenol and try and sleep. My tail bone and my hips are more sore now than before, but all that matters is that Elijah is safe and doing alright.

The weekend

I went yesterday to a Church Rummage sale in JC. I needed Sleepers for Elijah in 3-6 Months. He has tons of outfits, and jeans and onsies, but not many PJ's at all. I have typed up a list of things we have on my computer so if I see on Craigslist or Rileyyardsales that someone is selling items for reasonable prices I can look at my list and see if I really need those things. Anyway, Danielle and I went to it. I actually got allot of clothes for him, and a few other things for like $10. I was proud of myself because the one lady was selling sleepers/rompers for 50 cents a piece. I got a ton, I still don't think I have enough sleepers, but I can hopefully fix it in the next few weeks.

Nathan and I went shopping yesterday for Christmas gifts. It was nice to do that, and we did really well. I am very proud of us, and hopefully everyone loved their gifts :) I would write what we got everyone, but then since everyone knows about my blog they'd be able to sneak..... I will say everyone is getting 2 things, one very specific item from here, and then one personally picked out thing. We have a thought though since postage is such a pain in the rear, and so some people may not get their things until later. Since my Mom will be here for Christmas, I don't have to worry about mailing that stuff. She will be taking my Grandma Katie's stuff back. Since Nate's Mom and Dad will be here in January we will be sending Wes, Chris, Ben and Kelly's things back with them, and of course they get theirs while they are there. I only have to mail two boxes! I have to mail the things to my Grandma Horn's, and to Nate's Grandma. I ordered for free online the flat rate boxes, so hopefully that won't be too expensive! Oh and Nate bought me a massage pad you can put in your chair. Its nice, and I love it. When we got home he set me up with the laptop, pad and a drink. I think he feels bad about how miserable I feel sometimes. I know though, all the misery will in the end be worth it, so I try not to whine too much,. I'd just had a long day.

So after shopping we went to the PX, just to look around and see what they had. We were looking for some last second things I need for Elijah (Wal-Mart didn't carry the things I needed either). We found nothing at the PX. Then Jessica sent me a Text asking me to stop by, she had things for me. So we stopped there, and she gave me a bassinet, and some various other things (HELPFUL things). I got to see Breiah, who has grown tons.

We ate some lunch, and then wrapped presents. I was going to put them under the tree, but thought twice when I realized how much of it was food or food related. That wouldn't work with my dogs, so we nixed that idea immediately. We eventually decided to move them into the crib. We put them all in a clothes basket and put them in the crib to keep it from my dogs. Seeing as even just in Elijah's room the dogs can get to them. This house has been so annoying with temperature control, for some reason only the living room gets warm, and it reaches like 10 degrees warmer than the rest of the house, so we have to leave all doors open. Problem with that is I have nosy dogs who have issues, so we have to keep a baby gate up, with them on the side we are on to supervise!

Today we really didn't do much, I made crock pot chili, and we spent the day at home. Well I take that back, I went to Ogden because I got an email from someone who wanted to give me some baby clothes. I went over, it was about 5 onsies in bigger sizes. There was a snow suit type thing too that is green and like a sleeper sack almost, with seat belt holes. Its light green, and very cute!! Elijah wont freeze with Mommy and Daddy watching. He has the car seat cover too, and a few snow suits plus this thing, and blankets. It's funny because when I first learned that we were due in the winter I kept imagining a sick baby all the time, but we have so many warm things for him, I feel more confident. I washed bottles today too, and straitened up the cupboard that those type things go in.

Other than that, we are expecting a huge snow storm. Lucky us! The road conditions are already "Red". I don't know what it means really, but I know "Black" means if you aren't essential personal (MP's, and important workers) then you are supposed to stay off the road. I have to go to IACH for my NST regardless though. Nate has already gotten a phone call canceling PT. I am not a fan of Snow but Bridget loves it. Charlie wont go outside unless he is in his sweater, and only goes out long enough to pee and then gets right back inside. He dosen't even try to do anything else. Ruby likes it at first, but then he hips start hurting really bad and she gets miserable. We think she is older than 5, I personally feel like she is 7 or 8 because she has allot of hip/joint issues. We may never know though, she could be younger and just aged faster from her abusive home prior to us. I guess you just never know.

I guess other than that, there isn't too much going on. I lost my phone for a few hours. Later I found it under the bed. I think Charlie took it there.

Oh my

Well today was kind of annoying. I hate days like today. It was alright to start I guess. Nothing traumatic anyway.

As I was leaving for my appointment I was washing my hands and realized that hey, My kitchen sink isn't draining. So I called from the truck and the receptionist for Picerne tells me "Well Ma'am we are very under manned today and have about 10 emergency calls, so you may not see a worker until Saturday or Sunday"...... Well needless to say I was annoyed with that answer because I can't use my sinks, or dishwasher. Lets just say NO GO on that one.

My 2pm appointment was a downer though. I got there 15 minutes prior like they demand you do, and got checked in. I got settled in my seat, and started reading my parenting book. There was a lady that brought her 3 kids under the age of 12 (2 of them were under 5) even though you aren't supposed to have kids up there at all. Mom went back to her appointment and leaves the oldest in charge, except he had no control over these children nor did he even try. The boys were jumping off couches, and screaming, taking things from another persons diaper bag. Finally after another adult said something and got snippy with the oldest he said "sit down" to the other children. Then the oldest turns the TV up so loud that you couldn't hear the nurses call names to go back. Finally the receptionist came over, turned the TV off all together, informed the oldest that he needed to keep control. Then she went back (From what I understand) and interrupted Mom's appointment and made her come out. Mom was carrying on about how unfair it was she had to reschedule, the receptionist put her in her place though by reminding her that children weren't even allowed in the clinic, let alone to be left under the supervision of another child. Mom got huffy, and left. I must admit, I think the receptionist is my new hero!!

So anyway it was 3:00 and I'm still sitting in the waiting room. I ask the receptionist what is going on, because an hour past my appointment is odd, even from IACH. The nurse come out an gets me, does the triage type deal. Then says "Oh and by the way, We have no Doctor to see you, Dr. Session has been doing emergency Cesareans for the past 2 hours".... So why is it I have to show up 15 minutes prior, and you can't even call me when he isn't available. So I explained to her that I do actually need to see someone today, so is there another Dr. that I can see. She says to me that I have 2 choices, Dr. Mason or Mrs. Prickett (She is a midwife). Prickett and I have history, and it isn't pretty (Lets just say her exam makes me cry every time, and I refuse to ever see her again). So I asked for Dr. Mason. He ended up not being too bad, but I start telling him about these headaches I've been getting. They are so painful all I want to do is sleep, and vomit. He looked at my chart as says to me "Well I think that's because you have Preclamsia". I really hadn't had blood pressure issues at all so I didn't understand that at all. I asked him and he said that my NST on Thursday had me kind of high, and then today was really high (I can't remember the numbers, he told me and I didn't retain the info as I was too busy trying not to panic). So the next step in that is I need to collect urine for 24 hours, and take it in so they can test it for proteins. I know that may have been Too Much Info, but I knew if I didn't explain it I would get asked. He checked my hands and legs and feet. They are really swollen which I guess is a sign or symptom. I knew I was swollen, I couldn't fit my wedding ring anymore, and I can't wear 99% of my shoes. I don't really know a whole bunch about it all, yet. I will google later! They did the Strep B test, Not one of my favorites at all. Its so bizarre. Then they tell me I am dilated 1 CM. I still have a good fluid level. My blood sugars are higher than what they should be, but he said its okay, I just need to monitor in case they have to up the dose of Metphormine. I guess the culmination of the day really got to me though, so by the time I got to the car I was crying. I guess out of maybe frustration more than anything. I mean in reality I do realize it isn't a huge deal, but they did mention "Bed Rest" being the solution, and "Cutting out Stress" if it really is preclampsia (I hope I am spelling this right). I mean I can obviously up the sugar meds, and I'm 36 weeks, so I mean making it this far has been a blessing given the possibilities, but I am just feeling overwhelmed and anxious I guess. So when my day isn't going the best to start, and then I am being told of something else not great its just exhausting to me. I think I am probably over reacting by being so dramatic, but try and remember I am just feeling a little bad for this baby. His Mommy has sugar issues, and now I am possibly hurting him with blood pressure too? Oyi!!

So Picerne was just here, and that is fixed. Nate called the emergency line as soon as the neighborhood office closed because the emergency Techs are way better anyway not to mention allot nicer, and they aren't effected by the other neighborhood issues.

Other than that, Nate made dinner so we just ate that. I'm thinking about going to take a bath, and hopefully calm down some so I am not being a jerk all night.


Oh and PS- You have to keep the urine from the 24 hours in your fridge! They give you the container but isn't that sick?? Nate asked me if I could just keep it outside since its so cold out there. I just might.... Yuck!!

Swirling in the sea of stupid

So may I just say that normally I am kind of a big jerk, its my nature. For some reason I cannot handle the fact that some folks have simply left their brain for dead at home. Let me clarify, as I've been known to have a "Moment" or two, but I really don't know how some others function daily.

The day started out alright, I had my NST at 9:30 am like normal. Everything is okay though, so that was just a normal day, I had hoped.

Last night I didn't get much sleep, I woke up at about 2:30am and could not fall back asleep for the life of me. I texted back and forth with Kelly for awhile (Since she works night shift, she has no choice but to be awake). I fell back asleep at like 6am, but had to wake up at 7:30am...... So I think its fair to say I am a little on the grouchy side. I feel the need to post something on my front door these days to the effect of "Don't you dare ring this door bell if you are going to bombard me with Stupid" but I haven't yet made this sign..... I really should get on this though, as apparently it could have been used today.

Since I was trying to stay awake, so I would sleep well tonight I figured "Lets clean some stuff"..... I swear to you this house is spotless, and was before I started anyway. It was about noon when I began the vacuuming, and I figured "Noon, no big deal right?" and after I finished all but maybe a 2ft by 2ft section by the front door when my bell rang. I answered it, and it happens to be the upstairs neighbor. Anyone who knows me, knows this lady makes my blood boil not pregnant, not sleepy and in a good mood. So Lord knows today was not the day to start with me! She says to me "Can you tone down your vacuuming and do it later? I am trying to take a nap"..... Well let me shine a little light on this person for you. This couple likes to blare their music, beat their dog, have loud intercourse, and stop around until about 4am every night/morning. They haven't taken their dog to the bathroom outside in 3 months, and when they open their door all you can smell is the Urine. They are gross, and rude. Last night she chose to vacuum and run around at about 3am. So by her coming to my door at noon I was pretty offended. Shockingly dear readers I managed to not say anything that would get me in trouble. I said "Okay" and shut my door. Lets not pretend for a second though that I am a jerk, and I am wicked pregnant :) So not only did I finish my task, but I re-started it, and in fact I think each room got vacuumed 3 times today. Further more I chose to shampoo my carpets too. Hope she had a wonderful nap......The hilarious thing though is that even if she tries to retaliate tonight, Post has a noise ordinance so if she is loud past 10:30 she can get a fine. I've just been too nice to call the MP's on her in the past.... Try me now :)

So as you can imagine I was annoyed, and continued to clean things. At about 3pm my door bell rings again. I didn't even want to answer, but had to. It was a separate neighbor with a whole new dumb issue. She wanted to know had I seen anyone mess with her car or steal her purse? I asked her "Someone broke into your car?" and she says "No I left it unlocked and I think they just took it, but I had $300 in it".... Well dear you wont be seeing that again any time soon. I told her no I hadn't seen this, and I had no clue what to tell her. She then proceeded to tell me (As if I cared at all) about how its Ft. Riley's fault for not hiring enough law enforcement MP and Civilian. How if they would do their job and watch the neighborhood nothing like this would happen. I beg to differ dear idiot, as it is not their job to babysit an unlocked car with an extremely tempting prize. Further more, If they are sitting in a parking lot babysitting YOUR purse, how are they supposed to take care of the other people who have actual emergencies?
Apparently she'd called the MP's, so an MP came down and asked me about it. I told him that I'd not seen anything (as I told the idiot upstairs), but if you leave your car unlocked and with cash in plain sight that is kind of dumb. He agreed with me, but said he was just following procedure. Needless to say, I feel like if you can't secure your items then maybe you shouldn't have said items. I'm not normally a "You get what you deserve" type of girl, but today I couldn't help but think it out loud. Now if she had her apartment legitimately broken into, or her car window smashed and her CD player taken I may (Again May) have been more sympathetic to her cause, because at least she tried to secure the items. Not to mention, in the past 3 weeks there have been about 5 fliers from the neighborhood office saying break ins and thefts have been a big problem lately (Always is around the holidays) and to make sure you aren't leaving anything in plain sight or you aren't leaving stuff unlocked........

So that was my rant, I am going to bed now :)

My Day

Well my day was how shall we say, Interesting and frustrating.

This morning was okay enough, I woke up, had breakfast with the husband and went to my NST. Elijah is great, the fluid around him is great. He apparently weighs 4 pounds which is exciting. They told me to plan on a small baby though, because the medication I am on for the Gestational is going to leave him a little on the smaller side. I know he will be more than 4 pounds obviously, but he shouldn't be more than 6 they estimated. That's okay though, I'd rather go for the smaller than the larger. As long as his lungs and organs are developed.

So last night I was really annoyed because the maintenance crew spent from about 8pm to 12am beating on the walls, pipes and everything else in the neighbors house. I finally called them at 12 and explained that although I understand plumbing issues its late and seeing as your beating on the walls and everything else can we shit off the water and just come back to it in the morning. The lady was really snotty, but even the crew over there agreed to leave since it was late. I guess they came back at like 9am after I left for my appointment.

I left here at about 9 to go, On my way there my air pressure alert came on. So great!
I went after with NST and got air.

I came home and realized that my bathroom was filled with an inch of water. Nice right? So I call Picerne, and the lady on the phone was like "Well is this an emergency? It is lunch time and we are really busy"...... Um YEA its an emergency seeing as all underneath my sink and entire floor are soaked!! I haven't even tried any of the electrical items that were under there (Hair dryer, and such) but did have to throw allot of paper products away (Toilet paper, and various things). That made me mad, and the lady said she would send someone "As soon as she could" and until then I should try and clean up as much as I can (I only threw the rugs in the washer, and cleaned out under the sink so I could get that drying and clean). So its an hour and a half later and still no one has shown. I'm sitting with the bathroom door open and was in Elijah's bedroom sorting clothes. All of a sudden there was a mad gush like someone was in a shower. There was water POURING out from under the sink, Like mad pouring like a shower. I was furious at this point and called back. I was nice at first, said I know I just called but I now was having the pouring of this water. That it needs to be taken care of now because its filled the plastic bucket 3 times, and the neighbor is in fact taking a shower (You can hear it through the wall) and all of his water is coming in MY bathroom. Again she says "We'll we are really busy, we'll get there when we can" Finally I snapped (Pregnancy, Fury, whatever) and said "Well now that its reaching my carpet, you can pay to have that cleaned too because I am not doing it myself. I think this insane amount of water coming from my sink trumps lunch time. If I knew how to turn of my water I would have, but I DONT" She told me I'd have to be patient.... UGH!!

So finally at like 2.5 hours from my 2nd phone call they get here, Turns out they'd blocked the pipes to drain both mine and my neighbors houses, and in the vigorous snaking in the past 2 days they'd put a dime sized hole in my pipes. So essentially because draining for both apartments was blocked I got the water all over my bathroom. Anything run in either apartment (Except the toilet) would pour out into my pipes, and out that hole. Nice right? It took them like 4 hours to fix, Replacing my pipe and going under the building to take care of the clog.

Shonna stopped by, She brought us a gift card to Chilli's. I was so touched by that. Nate and I are going to go on the 22nd (Our anniversary). I can't wait!! Providing I am not having a baby that day lol. That brightened our day, seeing as my bathroom still is torn apart (Their running a fan for 12 hours to dry out the cabinet, and I cant use the sink because they re caulked it).

Supposedly they are going to come at 1 tomorrow to clean my carpets. They better too.

Other than that, I am miserably pregnant, and want it over with but things are okay!

Adopting a Family for the Season

I have recently come into contact with a family that is in need. Now I know that at times we are often nervous about donating, because we feel like our items are being re-sold or not going to someone who actually needs them. I can tell you they are in need, and being that my husband and I have fallen on hard times ourselves and have received some amazing help from others I really want to help this family out. I am a "Pay it Forward" type of person, and if it weren't for some of the generous people in my life my son would not have much, if anything. With that being said, I know as of right now they are in need of the following, but really can use just about anything. Specifically he is looking for:

Baby Gates (Picerne gave them a tri level and his babies are climbers)

Warm clothing in 18 Mo sizes or larger (He has twins, one girl and one boy)

2 Cribs (Again for the twins)

Furniture (All kinds, They just moved in and have nothing)

A Washer and Dryer

Basically just anything I think would help them out. If you have anything you can either let me know, or visit his post on RYS

http://www.rileyyardsales.com/item.jsp?itemId=12569726

Again, I know we often see things like this and think we are being scammed but I can assure you this is not the case, and this is just a soldier in need. I am collecting as much as I can on my own (We don't have much) but thought I would see if someone could help this family out as well. He has a little money if there is something you are selling, but they do not have much.

Thanks for taking the time to read this,

Dramatic Face Book/myspace/twitter

So lets just say that I am a firm believer in thanking those who have helped you out in your life, and I also believe if you are unhappy with something in your life change it. Now I understand that you cannot always change your surroundings, your circumstance or your luck but at the same time, I feel like some people are just incapable of being satisfied with that they have been given.

For instance, if I see another person write about how pathetically sad they are to be single I may scream. Being single is not the end of the world, or worth jumping of the nearest bridge. This may come as a shock to some, but there are people that enjoy being single and are able to make the best of that. I really feel as though if your largest problem in life is being single than you are lucky. Oh and PS if you never leave your house and play on the internet all day you more than likely are not going to be meeting anyone. Just a thought.

It really irritates me that people complain about their "Crappy" friends. Guess what, you chose those friends. I'm sorry that not wanting to babysit for you every weekend, or drink with you and mope about life makes me a terrible friend. Perhaps some people do not want to share in your sappy "Woe is me" pity parade. Contrary to popular belief I am not your personal nanny here to serve your needs as a place to drop off your screaming child every weekend so you might be able to drink a few beers at the bar with your friends who happen to feel that drowning in a yeast beverage will fix the deployment your husband is on. I have to admit that deployments suck, but it isn't my job to watch your children for 12 months. If I offer that is a much different story (I have offered to a few times for various people and their R&R's and such, but not weekly) but when you ask me and I say "No" immediately posting on your FB about how "Crappy" your friends are and that no one is there when you need them I think you are being the crappy friend....... Really, aren't we being a tad overkill on the poor friend thing. Now if you chop off your legs, and need a ride to the ER and I say no, then feel free to post that.

I'm getting increasingly annoyed with people that live rent free, in their parents home. Their parents babysit for them for free, and pay for their college and all their bills and they have the Gaul to say so many negative things about their parents because they want you to watch your child after school. Really? I am extremely thankful for my family and they don't do all that for me. You can't just say thank you? After all that is your child. I mean if my Mom were watching my child from 9am to 6pm so I could drive the car she pays for to the classes she is paying for you better bet that my rear end would be home at 6pm to watch MY child. Your Mom didn't get herself pregnant, and you are collecting child support to be that little girls Mom so what are you so incapable of just doing your job? Maybe your Mom should just file for custody so you can go and party and live carefree right? I mean is she being so unreasonable to ask you to come home after class and do what you are obligated to do? Why don't you try living in the real world were no one else pays our bills, if I want to go to college it is my obligation to pay for it, and if I want to go to class my child care is going to run about $244 every 2 weeks. Want to trade, because I am sure my Mom could straighten you out some about what being a responsible parent means.

Well there was my rant about the Status updates I just signed in to see. Don't get me wrong, my status today is "I don't feel to well" but I think some people are getting a little dramatic here. At 20 + years old I would think the real world would be a little more sour than these being your largest problems. You want to talk about problems, I will hook you up with some people that can tell you about problems. I've known wounded soldiers that are more thankful that 90% of these people, and those soldiers have lost limbs and suffered severe brain injury. If you are unhappy with your job, finances, love life and other things then maybe YOU should take that initiative to change things. Posting things on facebook about your pathetic situations and "Horrible" life just makes me laugh. I refuse to be the goody bag at your pity party.

Nothing new really

So there isn't much to say about today. I guess there is no point in even writing, but then again I promised that I would.

I woke up at 8:30 am with all 3 dogs in my bed, which during the week isn't unusual once Nate has gone to work. The catch would be that today is Saturday! So I went to the living room, and there was no husband to be found. I called his phone, which he didn't answer. No biggie, if it were something huge I figured he would have woken me up or left me a note. He came home at like 9:30 though. He apparently went to donate plasma and hadn't thought I would wake up before he got home. You can't take your phone into plasma, so he couldn't answer me. No harm, no foul.

We went to Dillions, got some things and some dinner. That was alright. I added a few more things to my Rileyyardsales account. Actually got several offers on what I posted, so hopefully it goes soon. One item already did, and the other is supposed to be picked up tomorrow. I got a little mad though, because Nate and I bought a booster seat from a friend for like $20.00 and then we realized with the high chair his Grandma bought us there was no point in keeping the booster seat (It wouldn't work at my Mom's table anyway, so I have to be creative for Ohio regardless) I figured I'd post it for $15. It still sells at Wal-mart for almost $30.00 so I thought that was fair. Within 30 minutes of being on the site I had a lady offer me $10.00 which wasn't bad, but another one offered me $5.00. People like that bother me, Mostly because you're asking me to take $10.00 off? Then another person wanted me to deliver it to her, in Manhatten...... Which I refuse to do because I have found that delivering is impossible with my busy schedule and the gas I spend to go there isn't worth it. So I told her that I was sorry I do not deliver, and she got furious and sent me a very heated email. That kind of made me mad. Fortunately there was another lady that said she would pay the full $15.00 and pick up tomorrow. So we'll see.

I had to call Picerne today, because the bathroom sink wasn't draining. It was annoying, They actually came, and pretty quick. The guy was here for almost 3 hours though, and on his phone the whole time. I think all he actually did was dump drano in the sink.... It drains though so whatever, I don't have to pay for the work.

Other than that, as you can see, boring day! Elijah has gotten hiccups at least 4 times today, Nate got to feel it too. He agreed that its pretty silly.

Thanksgiving

We had a pretty good Thanksgiving. I was planning on writing about it when I got home last night but that did not happen. I was way to sleepy. My NST went really quick, so that was nice. I woke up at 7am and called Labor and Delivery since my Doctor said I had to go in for the NST no exceptions at all. They told me they would expect to see me at 9:30 am. we were home by 10:15am. Elijah actually stayed on the monitor and did his thing for them quickly. That made it so great!

We got home and I finished up my cooking, and my hair and make-up. We left for the Ogburn's and got there at about 3. Dinner was yummy, and all my dishes turned out super well! I was very proud since I made it all myself, and did it from scratch! Yay me! Even my cheesecake was yummy! GO ME!! We didn't get home until 10 pm though, so I went right to bed, and crashed.

Today was fun/alright. We've been eating some yummy left overs though. Nate and I also got a great box from Ohio. Apparently there is a group in Ohio that supports their home town soldiers. One of my friends and his wife added Nathan and I to the list. Today we got a big ole' box from them today. It was perfect, and really brightened our day!! It was jammed packed with all kinds of amazing (And helpful) things. Lots of goodies to snack on, lots of hygiene and household things. As an added gift to us, Cory and his wife (Jamie) added a huge diaper bag and some wipes to our box just for Elijah. I love the diaper bag and it honestly made my day!! Its so big, and roomy. I packed it all up for our hospital trip. Now I just need the munchkin!!

I went for a walk today, that was terrible. My feet are so swollen at this point that even my loosest shoes don't fit anymore. I tried to do it anyway. Needless to say, I got the biggest blister of my life and it literally rubbed the whole back of my heel off. I didn't make it all the way home, and sent Nathan a text saying "Come get me, I can't make it"...... He rushed to pick me up. He helped me wash it, get neosporine on it, and bandage it. Its so big and nasty that I had to get out gauze and wrap. Washing it was terribly painful too. So note to self..... Pregnancy makes your feet huge and unbearable. Although I should have seen that coming, because today I was walking by the Christmas tree and an ornament hook shot straight into my toe. I had to yank that back out, so clearly my feet are cursed for the day!!

We cleaned out the goldfish tank today, and moved it to Elijah's room. Tomorrow my goal is to scrub the turtle tank (Don't worry, Nate is doing all the hard labor) because the nasty algae is driving my insane!!

I took Amanda some food today, and since I was there I let her dogs out. As I was leaving her house, I pulled out of her spot and someone tried to take her parking spot. I guess you could say that my Pregnancy Hormones are getting the best of me because I cursed them out for taking parking spaces that were not theirs, and how rude/blind do you have to be to park in something that clearly says "3" when you are no were near going to apartment #3. Wow it was bad/funny.

Anyway, We tried to make as many phone calls as we could last night and yesterday. So if we missed you we are sorry but we got so busy, So sorry!!

A very silly day ~ At the very least!!

Normally if my day is going bad, it stays bad. So I must give a high five to God for having such a great sense of humor today. Without all the silliness, I may have lost my mind today.

I chose to start my portion of the Thanksgiving cooking today. Pretty much because if my NST thing dosen't get timed well then I may not be able to cook, and I committed myself to cooking. So that is how this day began, and ended oddly enough.

I'd gotten all the things out to make my Mom's pumpkin Cheese Cake. It is so yummy and since it is made with Splenda and has no crust, it is Diabetic Friendly :) So this recipe calls for wax paper, and needless to say, I did not have any of that! So I realized this and but on my brave face to go to the Commissary. Prior to leaving I did take the eggs out of the fridge and put them on the table (Since the recipe calls for room temp. eggs). Remember that, you'll need it later........

I found everything I needed to get within probably 5 minutes at the Commissary, it wasn't until the check out line that it occurred to me that I put gas in the Civic for Nathan yesterday and left my ID in my pants from the day before. Fortunately the clerk was nice to me, and let me leave my cart near her register and go back to get it (She could have been even nicer and not made me go, but its her job). I quickly went home, and then back. I paid for my stuff and went about my way. While on the way home I realized that I better put gas in my Sante Fe if I wanted to make it till next Tuesday. So I went to the gas station. Since I have been carrying cash more and more recently (The kids Mom pays me in cash so its the easiest thing) I had to pre-pay. I got all the way in, through the 5 minute line (I went at lunch, Go me) and guess what I forgot in the truck? If you said my ID you are correct! Needless to say, as soon as I got to the register I said "I left my ID in the truck, but if you could just let me pre-pay now I will come back in with it when I am done"..... This clerk... Not so nice, and she a:) Chewed me out for not having my ID and b:) informed me that ID's are a must and I would have to go out and come back in. I did this, and yes, it is my fault but her attitude wasn't necessary.

So as you can imagine, with me being 35 weeks now, I was a tad grumpy. I was driving home a little bit annoyed and what do I happen to see by my house on the road..... Yep and "adult toy" if you want to use the political term. I was shocked, and it made me laugh really hard. I sent a Text to all my friends that I thought would fine it as funny as me and said "There is a "toy" on the Thomas Ave. Just in case you were needing one of those"...... What a silly thing to be on the road between houses and a school! Good thing there wasn't school today, seeing as I could imagine a small child picking it up and taking it home to say "Look what I found"...... LOL

So I finally get home, and for whatever reason (I guess I wasn't thinking) rather than Pre-Heating my oven I hit "Self Clean". Thank Goodness I only wanted to do the Cheesecake because that was about 4 hours worth of time. It is okay though, because I had tons of other prep to do. I did decide to assemble the mix for the Cheese Cake though. I went to mix everything and my eggs were missing. I couldn't figure it out, I knew I put them out before I left..... Then I spotted on my living room floor a tiny bit of white speck. I got down, and wouldn't you know it was a small little bit of shell. So one of my dogs actually ate 3 eggs, shell and all while I was gone! What a bunch of oinkers!!

Nate actually came home at about 3, so that was a great surprise! I really enjoyed that. He talked me into eating and MRE for lunch. It wasn't horrible but definitely not the best. I ate a few things from mine, but mostly gave it to him. It was silly that he even suggested it to me, let alone we actually sat at the table and ate them!

We put up our tree, and other decorations today. I normally like to do it on Thanksgiving day after dinner, but since we are going to a friends, I made him help me today. It was fun. I have some pics, but I am so sleepy I don't have the energy to add them. Maybe tomorrow!

It is NESTING

Wow, So since I have been sick I haven't felt the need to clean or do anything more than sleep. That's pretty normal though. Well this morning I woke up with Nate, Ate some cereal and then descided that I didn't want to go back to bed. So instead I spent the whole day cleaning. I dusted the house, Vaccumed everything, Ran the carpet shampooer. Then I tackled the bathroom, laundry closet and bed room. I think the only room that didn't get a full top to bottom clean was Elijah's room. It made for a short day, By the time I stopped it was 3:30 and Nate was coming home. He had come home to watch the kids (The ones I babysit) so I could go to my WIC appointment at 4:15 and they normally arrive at 4:30.

WIC was an okay appointment, They gave me a book to read about the benifits of breast feeding. Once again, Another bundle of information about how evil formula really is. LOL. Then they gave me 2 months worth of checks, and told me as soon as my son is born to call them, they'll change my checks accordingly. It was super quick, only took like 5 minutes. Then I went to the gas station, That took 15 minutes since all the soldiers were getting off work. We found out only after I got home that the kids weren't even going to be coming, so Nate getting off early was pointless. Oh well.

On a side note, Elijah has been getting the hiccups allot lately. Its so weird, yet funny to feel them.

35 Weeks

Well I am 35 weeks today. That means that since they don't want me to pass 39 weeks, I only have 4 Weeks left! Wow time has flown. Not that I am complaining at all because I am READY! My Dr told me that I could deliver at 37 and that baby boys lungs would be healthy, and they wouldn't do anything to stop contractions. I really wouldn't mind having him at 37 Weeks though. I would love to hold him sooner, rather than later.

This morning was the NST, and that went pretty well. Nathan came with me, so he hung out with me. It really helped pass the time though, and Elijah did a ton better staying on the monitor. Thank Goodness :)

We also had our 35 Week ultra-sound this morning. It was alright, but can I just say that I really dislike the whole fill your bladder prior. My appointment was at 10:15, So I had to empty my bladder at 8:45 am and then drink a Qt. of water by 9:15am. Then you can't pee or anything until after the ultra-sound. I did okay, except they didn't see me until 10:45 so I really had to pee! The tech was really nice though, and she remembered us from our 20 Week appointment, which I thought was funny. She remember that baby boy had his legs crossed and the cord down there, and she asked if we had ever figured out what it was. I told her about my KC appointment, and how we knew from that. So a few minutes later as a joke she was like "Wow, This is a girl"...... Nate and I both said "WHAT?"..... Then she told me that it was joke. We were having a boy. Nate and I were both really worried, I mean we've painted a green room, and have tons of boy clothing! She printed us off a picture of the "Boy" parts. So rest assure, he is a he! Other than that, we are doing great. He is looking wonderful! I am a little nervous though because his head is big. I am not being a silly Mom, and thinking WOW, even the Tech said his head is large. They couldn't accurately predict the weight though, so she said it would take some time for her to study the Ultra-Sounds to get an accurate prediction. The weight makes me the most nervous simply because GD babies have the history of being larger. Since he is still wanting me to deliver naturally, We really have to keep a close eye on him. If he gets to be over 9lbs we have to have a Cesarean no way around it.

That's another thing that's been on my mind allot now a days, This whole Natural birth Vs. Cesarean thing. My last provider that I had until I was about 6 months along said the whole time because of my Cervical history I would have to have a C-Section. Well he retired (Horrible timing in my opinion) 3 days before my 6 month appointment and my new Dr. is allot younger and he was telling me that although this is common practice for allot of the older Dr's that he dosen't believe this at all. The concern is that when you've had the cervix altered or had portions removed that you may not dilate the way you should, and this lands many women in a cesarean anyway. He told me that in his opinion that he wants all first time Mom's to at least try it natural, and see if they can dilate on their own and deliver without surgery. He told us the ball was in our court, meaning its kind of up to me. He has been emailing me numerous articles about the topic, and talking to me about it all. Let me tell you that I was by far the most angry about this at my initial appointment with him. It really frustrated me because for 6 almost 7 months I'd been told there was no chance of a natural delivery. Now I am being told that its suggested? I guess I just feel like there is no winning. I am terrified of delivery, either way. One thing I am most afraid of saying "Lets do it natural" and then having to go into surgery anyway because I couldn't dilate or his head is too large. Further more, his weight plays such a big role in all of this. My Dr actually said at the last appointment, Well I guess it is a hard choice to make because maybe you should have a cesarean because of the GD. So I don't think he even has his mind made up, and I'm supposed to choose?? I dunno, I'm just worried I guess. I called the birth classes on post and they said it was too late, Since its a month series and you have to start at the start of the month, I missed November. Starting in Dec. I will miss the last, and possibly 3rd class.


One thing is for sure, No matter what I will be using the Epidural in a natural delivery (if I can even do that). I have heard stories and opinions but honestly I don't care. The Braxton Hicks are the worst, and I don't even want to think about the experience with the real contractions. I told my nurse the other day this, and she went on and on about how I shouldn't commit to that, and I need to try without. Yea lady, Bite me..... I will be using the drugs. I don't want to do it otherwise. It is getting harder and harder to bite my tongue when people tell me what their opinions are and what to do. I can't explain it, but for some reason when someone says "Oh you should do this" regarding anything it makes me furious! Again, I can't explain it. More than likely its the hormones and not so much me. I just feel like if I didn't ask you your opinion, please don't tell me what you think. I don't care if you breastfed, if you delivered "drug free" or if you slept with your child in your bed.

*The pictures aren't the best, sorry! I took the pictures with my camera of the print outs. One is the "Boy" parts, and one is the face.

One of those days I guess.

I think I have been in an increasingly annoyed mood here recently. I guess maybe I should just figure its the hormones right? That and this weirdo sleep pattern this Amoxcil has me on. I take my anit-biotic, and like 45 minutes later I can't even function I am so exhausted. Then I sleep for about 3 hours. Thing is then I have to take again, almost as soon as I wake up, and then one more time. I called my Dr. he told me that its normal in the 3rd Trimester to have this kind of issue/reaction. So I guess for another week I get to play this game. I think Nate is getting bored, but he is at least being understanding.

We had a pretty mellow day though, we went to Dillions and got some food, odds and ends until payday. Today is the 22nd, which means my wedding anniversary is in a Month. I wonder if Elijah will come before or after that. Nate keeps saying that Elijah will be born on the 22nd, That will make for an interesting anniversary for sure. My Mom comes on the 23rd though, and is spending Christmas here :) That makes me excited!! Means I might actually break out the decorations after all. Actually I already started planning the tree location and were I can put up decorations. No one has ever been to my house for the holidays (Other than thanksgiving, and Easter). I am sort of excited about this one! Watch me do all this and have Elijah show his cute little face on Christmas, In that case we might have to change his name to Jesus (Kidding).

So far though, I think everything is going alright. We have to go to IACH at like 8:30 am tomorrow. Normally I do my Non-Stress Test at 9:30, but since Ultra sound is at 10:15, Sandy (The lady that runs the NST room) told me to come at 9. I'm going to go up way early though because I want to make sure they can actually get enough of his heart rate. Last NST it took 2 hours up there just to get enough heart rate to convince my Dr. I can go home. I had the ultra-sounds in the actual ultra-sound department. The drinking the water is so uncomfortable. They want you to drink 36 ounces and then wait, and wait and wait. Last time I drank that water and I swear to you I almost went pee in my pants because it took them a half hour to get me in. Equally annoying was the fact that the technician kept telling me that I hadn't consumed the water as told because my bladder was way to small. That ticked me off because I even drank double the water. I am starting to drink a ton of water right now, so hopefully I am really hydrated and my tiny bladder wont be an issue.

Well its time for me to take another Anti-Biotic, so I am going to do that and go to bed.

Breast Vs. Bottle.......... The Argument to end all!

So I was talking to a friend of mine last night, and she asked me if with my upcoming son's birth would I be nursing. I gave her the same response that I have given everyone:
"If I feel like I can, I will. I know that a majority of women have a dead set plan and for various reasons they can't. I know several people that can't breastfeed because they don't produce, and others that can't because of the pain. I want too, but if I choose it just isn't for me then I wont. I don't feel like I have a set plan either way. I have some formula stocked up here just in case, and I have the supplies for Breast feeding too."........

I then got a lecture for 30 minutes about how it was the best way, the right way and God's way. I need to breast feed and it is my duty as a Mom.

I understand having a strong opinion, but here is my issue. It isn't just this person that told me all of this, I hear it from everyone. From the nurses at IACH, to family, to strangers that see my belly and want to talk about my son. I get it from friends, WIC and check out girls at the commissary. I don't understand how hard it is to just let me do what I want, and understand I actually am not decided either way. If I can't even produce anything am I supposed to let my Son starve because it isn't God's way? And what if I literally can't for some other reason, Is it honestly worth you wasting your time or breathe? It isn't like Formula is Crack or anything.

I have read all the studies, I know the benefits blah blah blah, Why do I need to know what YOU personally believe?? I understand that people think that children who are breast fed are smarter, and I understand the religion aspect. I also get the natural thing, but seriously I don't need to hear it from everyone. If I wanted to hear your opinion about what I should do with my son it would be asked of you from the beginning. As far as I know, this is my choice..........

Sorry for the rant, I am just having a rough day.

Baby Boy ~ Elijah

I will give you a brief (Or maybe not) run down on Elijah. Since I am not sure who is following, and who isn't, or their level of awareness on him. It becomes harder and harder to keep everyone up to date with so many appointments, and so many changes in both him, and myself. I will start relatively close to the beginning.

Obviously I know I am pregnant, and for anyone who may not know already know, We achieved this with the help of Clomid (A fertility medication). For about the first 4 months I was insanely sick. Morning sickness made it extremely hard for me to add weight. Fortunately around 22 weeks that faded away. Not completely but there was an improvement. Like most Moms to be these days, We wanted to find out what we were having. Only our small bundle did not want to co-operate. At our 20 week ultra sound he had his legs crossed and his cord in between his legs. It took us until about 24 weeks to actually find out what we were having. Clearly I have already referred to my child as "He" so yes, We are having a boy. I really thought it was a girl, and had been expecting that all along. Although it was a shock to see that he is not a girl, I am ultimately thrilled about this!

From about 24 weeks on I felt fine, Sleepy and large, but otherwise fine. We chose the name Elijah Aaron Micheal for our son. We are naming him Elijah because Nate and I really liked that name, and his middle names come from a promise Nathan made to his fallen friends family. We are honored to name him after this hero. Around approximately 30 weeks I was told I have Gestational Diabetes (I often refer to this as GD). I take metphormine, Do blood sugar checks, and eat a fairly strict diet. As part of this, I also go for a non stress test 2 times a week. At these appointments I lay on a monitor for an hour, while they chart his heart rate, and my contractions, as well as a weekly ultra sound. On a separate day each week I meet with my Dr. who monitors my sugar levels, as well as checks to see how I am doing. So far so good, and I am proud to say my son is HEAD DOWN, and ready to go.

I've had some pretty intense contractions a few times, nothing to significant, and I have also had the blessing of Braxton Hicks. The BH are increasing in intensity though, and I am pretty uncomfortable with them, however he needs to stay put for at least 2 more weeks. My Dr. said Elijah can have a safe chance at the world after about 37 weeks, As of Monday I will be 35 weeks. I personally think I am much further than I am, but my Dr. is sending me for an ultra-sound on Monday to see how likely this is.

I think that just about wraps up the baby update, and since I am exhausted, I think I will go to sleep now. Thanks for reading!

So it begins

Well, I guess I don't honestly know how to start this thing off. I'm no good (And honestly never have been) good at putting pen to paper (Or I suppose finger to key board) but really thought that this might be a good way to put out some of our news, and I think pictures. I'm not 100% sure though.

For those who may not know, I am pregnant. 35 weeks on Monday! The pregnancy has gone pretty quick. I can remember the phone call to the lab asking about my test results, the following 4 months of literally everything making me sick, all the ultra sounds, and Dr. Appointments. It all feels like this has gone way too quickly. Only 4 weeks to go. That is just plain unreal to me!

Other than that, I guess this gets simpler with daily life. So hopefully I actually keep up with it.