I don't know how to tell people

I think everyone reading this is well aware that Nathan is going to Iraq, again. That he has just spent the month in NTC training. During that time, Elijah and I came home to Ohio for our visit. Like everything in life, there have been pro's and con's to this trip. Obviously I love being around family, and friends who are helping this time go by quickly (I pick Nate up on Monday already!). I am grateful that Elijah is finally meeting family that he hadn't yet, and I am thrilled to see him thrive in Ohio and to see he doesn't hate it.

I think however, this trip has added to the deployment anxiety, and missing Nate. I know everyone means well, but everyday I go someplace without fail I get asked "Did you talk to Nate today". If I haven't it makes me sad to think about it, when I am not asked all the time, I don't realize he hasn't called. It's easier to press on. Then the conversation immediately turns to deployment. Neither of us (Nate has told me this also) want to talk about it 24/7. I understand that people have general curiosity but it is daily! The information we have doesn't change, and if it did we would let everyone know. Then after the the deployment talk the topic then goes to the new baby, and how Nate is going to miss that. We are aware of that, painfully aware but being reminded all the time doesn't help us at all. I guess I just want to be home and not have to have the above talk daily, Nate doesn't either. We are trying to get through the time prior to the deployment living in the moment, not looking to the upcoming events. I don't know how exactly to tell people that we don't want to talk about it, without it seeming rude. Nate and I spent allot of time talking about this the other night, because it was just getting to me. It is easier to face this thing with a strong mind and tough attitude when you aren't thinking about it 24/7.

The thing that gets the most is when people tell me just how hard having a baby while Nate is gone will be, since I will have a 12 month old. As if we hadn't thought about it before. Sometimes I wonder how much thought is going into statement being made. I'm not saying anything ill about the baby, just that hearing that at least once a day weighs on you also.

Elijah is 7 months :)

Elijah is 7 months old now. It blows my mind because it doesn't feel like that. He is moving like crazy, and eating more than a horse! He is learning to sit on his own, although after a bit he tries to stand (Landing on his face). If you stand him up and have him lean on something he can stay there for about 10 minutes. Loves the jumper! He is speaking also. He is a big bucket of drool, so I assume a tooth is on the way. I know it is weird, but I am in no hurry to have him get teeth. I have read up on the topic and the longer the tooth takes the healthier it remains. That is the 7 month update I think!

FIRST WORDS

Elijah has been "Saying" things for the past few weeks, but I've been brushing it under the table because I thought 7 months wasn't late enough (7 months this week) and that I was hearing what I wanted too. It's been "Maaaaa" and "Daaaaa" and occasionally we would get a "Maaaam" or a "Daaaaaad" but again, I thought they were happy accidents.

Today I am convinced they are true words! True, honest, and deliberate words. I was carrying him back to go to bed. I laid him down after hugging him and saying "Mommy loves you". As I was leaving the room, clearly I heard "Mommy". I'm now working on evidence, lol. How big is this child getting, I mean WORDS?? Real Words now?

Update, Again

We had an OB appointment on July 1st, and I was exactly 12 weeks. We saw the little baby, very cute! They say everything looked great, although when we go back I have to have a few tests done :( Not looking forward to that at all!

My travels have found me in Ohio. We left Kansas on July 2nd, Made it finally on the 3rd. Elijah was not into driving though so we had to get a hotel and relax for like 5 hours, But we made it!

Nate has made it to NTC, he left July 4th. I don't mind him being gone so much, its only a month before I will see him again (August 2nd he catches a flight to Ohio) but I hate what it implies. The implication being deployment. Not that its a shock, We even have an estimated (Loose Estimate) of the deployment dates. It's just coming at us so fast and the pregnancy hormones are really taking hold of my brain here. Ugh I am not ready, even if I did have a long time to get used too the idea.

Since coming to Ohio I haven't stopped moving though, and I think it may have caught up to me. My back is so sore, bending feels impossible! Raw deal, When you have an infant. Everyone today has said to me today that I am looking sleepy, I'm not really, I'm just in pain. The only thing you can take is freaking Tylenol! It so doesn't work, and only makes me feel sick! ERG. We have been visiting and visiting. I think that there is only a handful of people we have missed, but I hope to get them soon. I think if my back is hurting this bad tomorrow I may not leave tomorrow to go anyplace. Wed we are going to Aunt Jen's for swimming and lunch!

Anyhow my trip has been fun so far, just waiting on Nate to arrive.